He Looks On the Heart

“The more I love someone 

the easier it is to talk to them.” 

My Relief Society President said this in church today. We were talking about something completely different from what came to mind - this is how I feel about Heavenly Father. 

Sometimes it’s hard for me to speak to people - usually when I’m trying to share my feelings. I got a little better at that after I served my mission, but I still have problems sharing about my life and my feelings, even with people I know well. 

The main reason I mention this is because it was Fast and Testimony meeting today. The easiest way for me to bear my testimony is through song - that’s how I feel the Spirit the best and how I feel the most accepted by Heavenly Father. It’s easier to sing my feelings than speak them. A lot of people don’t understand that, because the standard is bearing testimony through words and it’s not as accepted to sing a testimony. Yes, I did bear my testimony today, but a lot of the time when I do it’s because I feel awkward or judged when I don’t get up. I hate speaking in front of people. It’s one of the reasons I love singing so much. Besides, when I sing I know He hears me - I mean He hears me when I speak, but not in the same way. When I speak I only know the world hears me and sometimes judges on what I say. 

Back to the point, of when I love someone it is easier to talk to them. This holds true for a lot of my family and friends, I’m more comfortable with them. But really, when talking to my Heavenly Father? I feel like I can talk to Him about anything! And it’s the same the other way as well, He loves all of His children so much so that He is always talking to us through the Holy Ghost. He does this because He doesn’t care what we say or do as long as we are striving to follow Him and loves us enough that He will eventually forgive us for our mistakes as well. He knows we have the potential to be perfect and has provided a way for that to happen through our Savior and His church. This is why I feel that singing my testimony is okay. Because He knows each of us so well and wants us to be comfortable, and knows I am most comfortable when I am singing. 

It’s also true that when we pray to Him and tell Him everything that we have a hard time saying to others (including the facts about those people we like/have crush’s on, etc) He knows how to guide us in that. He is our Father, and He provided a Savior who knows everything we are going through. 

This is how I know that He doesn’t care what we look like. He doesn’t care if we are black or white or Asian or Mexican or anything. He loves us for who we are on the inside. We recently had a Mormon message video night as a stake, where each of the wards shared a video thay had made that was like a Mormon message. Our video was about loving others as God does, looking on the heart instead of what we can judge of them.

1 Samuel 16:7

This is what we all need to do. Instead of judging others and not being able to talk to them we need to love them as God does. It will still be hard to talk to people at first but after getting to know and love it will be better. It’s still not something I’m very comfortable with, even after years of trying, and I am still way more comfortable singing. But I know Heavenly Father and those who are important to me understand and accept the ways I am able to express things. 

Thanks for reading, I know it wasn’t really much about how I’ve been doing, but it was something I needed. 

Kalani